To All Those I Left Heartbroken,
I am truly sorry if I was the cause of your heartache, breaking your heart when I left. I tell you in the most clichéd way - it wasn't you, it really was me.
I know my fears had me run before I could be the one to suffer heartbreak.
I know my closed heart made me cold, never becoming attached as deeply as you did.
I know my defenses had me operate in a detached manner that wasn't fair to you.
I know my youthful ignorance did not equip me with the experience to handle your heart more tenderly, more delicately, more considerately.
I know my own lack of self-love had me not know how to value the love you gave to me.
I have survived my own heartbreak to know now the intense pain, heartache, and longing you must have had to process, and I hope you have found healing since then.
I hope that you have set your own soul free in having forgave me, but I now can offer you my sincere apology for hurting you. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, I had layers of baggage and was thinking of myself to protect. I'm sorry that I selfishly put myself first in this way that resulted in negative, hurtful effects on those I did truly care for - including you.
I thank you for loving me when you did and in the way that you did. It was the right kind at those moments of my soul's growth, and I hope that my soul gave you the right kind of genuine love that I did at those moment of yours. Thank you for being my teacher in the kind of love you had to offer, for I now am finding it for myself - within myself.
I hope you have found the love of your life and are happy wherever you are.
With LOVE. Always,
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