Dear Hateful One,
I do have to admit that I have purposely avoided you. Your hateful energy whacks me down every time I am in your presence, as I would still try to emit love to you thinking it would somehow soften you. I have continually done the right thing by you, for you, even made efforts to protect you and look out for your best interests whether you know of it or not.
Yet, it's as though the more I try to be loving and genuinely have a care for your happiness, it only fuels your hate for me that much more.
So, I've learned to let you be and stay away from you as much as I can, to now do the right thing by me. By you choosing to stay stuck in your hatefulness of me, it has only shown me that it is not my heavy burden to love you to soften, nor to be confused that I am somehow deserving of your hate or a hateful person myself. I am not.
I am thankful because your hatefulness has given me opportunities to choose love all while growing my own backbone to stand up for myself and just be good with myself - for nothing I would do swayed your hatefulness.
I continually choose love and have continually given it to you, yet you choose not to accept it or want it. So, I now love you enough to let you be in your state of hate.
It's agonizing to see you put such tiring efforts into pretending. I will love you enough to tell you it's okay that you hate me. I'm stronger than you think and can take it. In fact, I could take it a lot easier if you owned your hate for me, for you would at least do the right thing in handing me the truth instead of lying to the both of us that you are loving and grateful for me.
I see that you hate me because my goodness imparted to you reminds you that there are parts of you that need your attention to work on for true self-acceptance, which is self-love.
I understand that your lack of self-love causes you to have hate in you to place it on me. When you do the work to choose to be truly loving, it will eradicate the hate within so that you can begin to be true in the energy that you emit, which I think deep down you truly would like to be a loving person.
In giving you this benefit of the doubt, I encourage and support it for it will lift your spirit and you will be free in being true, regardless if I am around to receive this love once you have found it for yourself.
May you begin to love yourself so you don't hurt anyone else that might not be tolerant enough to bear your hate.
With LOVE. Always,
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